hmm?

being there is one of the most required things i know. like, you guys couldn't be best friends or even lovers if you guys are never there for each other. again and again, different person means different personality, different type of lovers, and so on. i've never been in a complex and (extremely) serious relationship for more than once. i've been there once, and i think i would never do it again. it's like, one of my biggest mistakes, why doing it over again?

damn those relationships. Y U NO EXIST?

at some times, i might literally think that i shouldn't be in those relationships, i'm too immature. and i got like dozens homeworks and tasks waiting for me on my To Do List. and, why wanting to be in one? why waiting for your day to come? why don't you just sit back and relax while you're having some of your own times?

wait. let's get back to the topic. being there.

i'm on my pms days i think... i'm being OVER sensitive over some oh-so-silly problems. stupid and ridiculous, but how do you get away from that? your boyfriend SHOULD understand your behavior on these kind of days... like cmon, be a real man.

as i was sitting on my car, and gazed through all these never ending traffic.. i got a clue. would a true boy friend understand your everything? (look at that space, if my mom or dad's reading this, mom, dad, i typed one space between the word 'boy' and 'friend'. so he's just a friend of mine, well a special one i think). what? everyone has one you know. and by the way, it's veeerrrry normal.

ah, boy friend. he's just a boy which is my friend. what? friend? no! he's uhm... blah, if one of my girls are reading this, girls you what to think.

i wish i could tell everyone what we are now, but actually it's something that we haven't figure out, just yet. although at some cases i hate him for being so unsensitive and everything, i love him for being just the way he is. he knows my favorite milk... what?! yeah he knows my favorite milk. he originally said that if a girl's having her pms, it means she's desperately in need of her alone time.

SAY WHAT? YOU'RE WRONG DUDE. well that might work for several people, but not me (well, only at some random times). when i'm having my 'rough days', I GENUINELY NEED my closest ones, just like you dear. you're being my highly prior listener for now, although you might haven't known everything. but i know you can keep up :)

in the other morning, you've figured out something about me -one tiny piece of me- that i write. I DO THESE KIND OF THINGS. getting bored of my writings? then please kindly step out :)

you know i'm a desperate writer... i write things when i'm upset and i got nowhere to go. i can't literally describe my feelings for you, cause i don't know how to act. it's been years since i left the seriously loving and caring type of relationship. you've known about it as well right? so, let's say i'm a beginner, so just play fair and kind with me.

hey anyway, thank you for listening to every shit i told you yesterday, i'm a total crap for wasting your time, thanks! i owe you BIG time.

as you're reading this post, thanks for the Kinder Joy you brought a few days ago, and the milk as well. thanks for cheering me up a little. thanks for trying your hardest, i know it's hard for dealing with a girl like me, so selfish and immature.

oh and you'll be reading a lot more about things like these in the future, cause i'm not use to tell things straightly, i write. so you better check my blog for further infos about how i've been doing... and my mood too.

see ya classmate, thank you! :)