Another Goodbye.

Hi there bloggie. I've been missing you like hell :)
How things been going on here inside the bloggieland? Good? Great.
Mine's becoming pretty rough and sassy all of the sudden, I think this is the kind of situation I've been avoiding, that I've been scared about since the last epic break up I had over a year ago. And it's happening to me, again. Can you imagine how harsh my life is now? All the stuffs are playing too hard, and I just simply think that I can't handle it on my own. I should've listened to my girlfriends, and do what they said, and now here came even a bigger result, I'm screwed up, fucked up, and my body's aching. I haven't got much sleep until tonight. For the last one month, I had spent all nights talking for hours on phone. With him.

My personal habit forces me to check and see what's been happening in the last 5-10 minutes on my phone. And it kills. I need help, what, like from everyone at school to tell me to stop looking at my phone throughout 5-10 minutes. But I'm glad he's moving on though he's the one who's made the horrible mistake. It's funny how he just glanced away and move on, that's sad :(
Sad for actually seeing, knowing, realizing, and recognizing that someone whom you care about is no longer there. You know what? To be honest, I'd kill for times like those, cause maybe I'd never ever find someone who's as cool, nice, warm, and easygoing as he is. I had a total fun during this 1 month. I can tell his words are amazing, he's a good kid :)

So, every hello does end with a goodbye. And now it's my turn to glance and make my butt move along. If you are reading this, I just wanna say thanks. Thanks for having me, making me as one of the bittersweet stories of yours. I must honestly say that you're good, either in a good or a bad way. One day, I'll stand on a box, trying to find somebody who's as fun as you ;) but I think it won't be the same after all, but this is life, I, or even we, have to deal with these kinds of things.

Fall in love over and over again, take the wrong train, so by then, when you're ready to face the real world, you won't be too scared or whatever, cause this is life. Like a simple Focus on your camera, once you set the Focus to get a really nice shot of something, then the other objects on your camera will simply become a blur. And that's how life should be, or that's what life is. Once you set your mind up high to get something nice, or as I say, focusing to one thing that you really want, the other stuff will just do the tagging along, and be the blurry ones. And from now on, I'll set my Focus on myself to school. And the rest should tag along, be the blurry ones, I don't care. I hope I can do this. I'm so praying for some luck.. Pray for me guys :)