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when i said i didn't mean to, i actually mean it. when i said i'm sorry, it is beyond hard for me to me forgive myself. when i said it's okay, it's either i'm fucked up, not wanting to talk, or i'm just waiting for you to see me and ask whether you've done something outside the bite.
talking about the past may cause severe heartache for those who have bitter experiences over the years, and not to mention, many random feelings pop out out of nowhere. see this why people say reminiscing the past is somewhat suicidal.

thanks to what Po said, you've got to let go of the stuff from past, because it just doesn't matter. the only thing that matters is what you choose to be now. what's done, is done people. you can't go back and try to fix everything. stop looking back, no more glancing, all that you have to do is to stand right where you are and concentrate at what you're doing at the moment. stop worrying about something that has ended and start living and go live out your dreams.

you must be thinking, "another lecture about the past again? you suck."
i'm actually repeating this in case of myself thinking over the stupid past again and also as a favor to my dearest boyfriend. hey if you're reading this, stop blaming me for telling many stories about my past, you asked for it, and by the time i finished it you ended up being cranky saying you wouldn't want to hear shit like that. jealous much? hahahaha kid. no seriously stop it.

oh! and Happy Ied Mubarak to all my friends round the globe! did you guys enjoy the feast? have a pleasant holiday peeps, stay true to yourself and stay golden yet totally bold! honesty ftw! and did i mention i have a superbly cool new obsessions? they are Young The Giant, and my latest obsession for photography; Fisheye 2. happy holidays! X