Gloomy.

I'm feeling nothing but useless. I'm feeling nothing but gloomy. Why? Several loved ones must have known this. I'm missing some things. Things that I can rely myself on. Some people or things that mean so much to me. Some people or things who/which have been going away from me, leaving me and my problems alone. I used to say one word or two at them and they responded quickly, they used to be the best listeners and advisers in the whole wide world.... They're my special friends :(

I'm a girl. I have my own constant time to be and feel gloomy, to think about my pasts over and over again. I know it's kind of illegal to have such things like that, it's not good to look over your pasts and regret the whole thing. But that's exactly what I'm doing right now. Either it's one single person or a bunch of people that I'm missing, they all mean so much to me. It's their kindness that kills. Well, the only thing that matters is time. Someone used to say to me that time heals everything. If we're destined to be together, then we will. If we're not, then that's the best. And that's life. That's how we rock.

Friends. Oh how wonderful my life was when we're together. Sharing, thinking, talking, hanging out, gossiping over stuffs, and many more. Even talking for hours and hours on phone. Now all the things that left are gaps. Who could've planned for these gaps, guys? :( I feel like choking when I have to say goodbye to anyone, to anything. My new special friend isn't as easy-going and as open as the one I used to have... And that hurts. Who should I depend on now? Everybody's leaving. But I can't keep up, I need someone :(So, I'm going to send something to one of my special friends, I don't know what's up and what's wrong with me, but I think it is the best.