A Friend

This would be my first post on this blog about friendship. My friendship to be exact.

I think I'm going to tell her to open and read my blog after this. I hope she wouldn't mind. It's been like, months I haven't talked to her and met her up front. I miss her actually. I'm not being lesbian anyway, but there you go, a person who's really lovable, and very sweet and caring.. But she's too honest to know all that stuff... Anyway, she's Ikra Andita Maharsetia. She's been a friend of mine since elementary years.

Hi there, you're reading this aren't you? This won't take long ik, promise. It's just... You've been away for awhile, I don't even know why we've stop talking, either from facebook or twitter.. We're not following each other in twitter.. But it's good seeing you in my friend list in facebook anyway. See, we're getting awkward. I should have talked about this years ago, but in case I'd never had a chance to speak to you again... I know you kept things inside your Drafts in your phone while you were still using that old N-Gage phone, I've read 'em all. Even though you didn't let me to, I'm sorry. And there's something that I caught with my eyes, you said you are better than my friends, what's that supposed to mean? I'm sorry for being so cruel back then in junior high, you were so kind but then I just couldn't see it coming. I'm sorry for not realizing that you are the actual type of friend that I should rely on, I'm sorry for backstabbing behind your back, and actually, agreeing with other people to stay away from you... I regret them all. You are a nice person ik, I really am still thinking about that. Even though I've hurt you so much, you still treated me like a best friend, even though you're more like a straightforward person, you're still a friend of mine nevertheless.

Haha you're the only one who still know things about me (I hope) and you've sacrificed so many things, and you've always come home late after playing stupid things at my house... When will we ever get the chance to finally meet up and do the same thing.. ever again??? I know it will be impossible, but I'm gonna work on it someday, I promise. I'll set everything up, just for meeting with my best buddy. We're separated by miles away, I wish I could come to your place somehow... I know you'd probably think that I'm mental, and have been such a doofus.. yeah, I was. But I've changed, and you've changed either. You've grown up to be someone I don't know, someone I should get to know with.

We rarely speak.  You rarely reply my walls on facebook, and I'm wondering why. I know you've been hating me ever since, ik. You didn't get my message did you? I was trying to say I'm sorry but I just couldn't. I miss you in many ways! Wish we could do some more talks later, I miss you iks! :)