futuristic sound.

so here I am again, knowing that I've planned something not good. firstly, I skipped school today, knowing that Fristine has gone to Batam with her family for spending the holidays, so I guess I'd better skip a day of schooling too. a girl should show one of her bad sides right? and I think my absence in class today didn't make any difference or maybe it didn't make sense after all. and I've told my mum to go to salon with me today but as always she refused it because she hasn't slept since last night. well, I've told you guys my room is being redecorated right? so till now, I'm sleeping with her, and Pap too, at their room. I do everything in there. well I did see her playing with her laptop, I guess she can't barely give up on her farm (re: FarmVille) through its harvesting time. so yeah, that's the reason why she arrived home earlier today, she wanted an extra sleep. now I can hear her snoring sound sensation.

and, aside from all that, I'm pretty much gutted thinking about my future life. wondering how will it be? and whom will I spend it with? and what major will I take when I get to college? the last question is the creepiest. look, the clock's showing 5:56 PM, and it won't stop ticking. time goes by, it does not wait for you till you get back right on to your feet. that phrase is reminding me of A Lot Like Love. some kind of a love comedy. I love it. wait. major??? what will I do with it?

Ma and Pa said that I should've planned something for this, and at least I should have loved something from the beginning, I should have a dream to chase.. and on, and on, and on. but the shocking thing is, I don't know what to do with my life. I don't have a dream. well I do have. I just don't have a picture of what will my future be. when I was still in elementary, I saw a picture hanging inside one of ILP Cikini's classroom, it was about professions. there's a sailor, a tailor, a soldier, a dentist, and an astronaut. well there are still some but I can't remember them all. so, what do you think? an astronaut? I don't think so. and I think you guys don't think so too. except I have talent in astronomy and stuff, but the fact is I don't!

so there it is. if I'm afraid of making any mistakes, does that mean that I AM MAKING the biggest one instead? Pa once told me that if I ever going to have a job someday, it's better be the job that I've been searching for. well I don't really care about the position at first, I'm sure I can get a promotion or whatever. but what Pa said was, I should and I must have that 'passion' in my heart for it, a job for me in the future means everything later will depends on it. depends on my income, and how it can occurs my future life. have you guys thought of it once? have you guys thought of what kind of profession will fits you perfectly?

'cause in my opinion, job fits us. not we're the ones who fit them. once more, if we don't have the exact passion, we won't have the perfect job, we can't be happy. in the other hand, we're forced.